“I don’t trust you easily but when I say’ i trust you’ please don’t make me regret it ”
Trusting someone can be one of the hardest choices especially in relationships cause true intentions are never easily seen.
Many people think that relationships are useless cause most of the times people don’t end up together. I think this isn’t true because relationships give you so many great memories and lessons to remember. If you choose the right person the it’s the best thing that can ever happen to you .Having someone who loves your flaws, who craves you smile, who does things for your happiness is one of the most beautiful feeling in the world.
But sometimes it turns into a mess when you see someones true intentions, when you see why they actually kept you in their lives .Some people do it for physical/sexual pleasure or some people do it because they are lonely and they want someone to stand by them and fight for them and make them smile but once they get back what they lost, you don’t even exist to them. These situations are really messed up and it hurts so much when someone just uses you like that after you give them all your happiness, time, patience, love and trust and you believe whatever they say, you actually they they’ll keep up their promise, you begin to realize that they wont leave you no matter what, you have hopes that one day they’ll be so strong, that they will fight for you, you crave to hear their “love you’s” because it gives you a hope to live.
Sometimes you do so much for a person, that they leave nothing behind but scars on your heart and hand.
People ask me why I self harm. What do I get from self harming. Well, I can ask them the same question, why do people leave you shattering after you’ve done so much for them. What do they get?
Hence, I realized that people are always gonna leave.It’s just a part of life. And it’s going to happen, whether you like it or not. There’s no stopping it.I don’t know why everyone is in a rush to turn away. Why everyone is in such a rush to run. I don’t understand why more people leave rather than stay.
It’s always the ones you don’t expect. The ones you gave your heart too. The ones you told your everything too. It’s always the ones that you care about most that end up walking out. It’s always the ones you love the most, who end up hurting you the deepest.
The first time someone left me, my world turned into a raging storm and I was in the eye of it, in the center of the entire mess. I let that person take me down and destroy parts of me that I will never get back. I let that person tear me to pieces when he left me. I gave him all of that power. I gave him all of that strength to leave me weakened and smaller than ever before.And that’s when I realized, people are going to leave your life.
People who you have loved. People who you have laughed with, who you have shared your world with. People who you never ever expected to betray you.
I’m not a bitter person, but I like to look at situations in a realistic light, rather than sugarcoating it with false hope. And after someone who meant the world to me left me behind, I think a part of me had to become more wary. I had to become smarter with the people I connected with. I had to make better choices.
But I’ve had enough people leave, to start to recognize that not everyone will love me. Not everyone will root for me, or cheer me on. Not everyone will have a permanent place beside me, or inside of my heart.Not everyone I meet is going to want to stay.So I have to let go of the notion that love conquers all. That love is like glue. That love fixes everything. That love makes people not ever, ever leave.
Because the truth of the matter is, people are always going to run. Some people are always going to want the next best thing, no matter who you are or what you give them.
Some people aren’t ever meant to stay.And maybe that’s ok.
Because maybe in their leaving, we gain ourselves.
It’s been ages since I wrote, I know, I’m sorry and I’ll be posting regularly now❤️
Also I’d like to thank meeran for helping me with this blog, credits to himmm😂❤️
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Lots of love